12 Mar

Yay!  i actually got two answers to my last minute post last night soliciting questions.

In hopes of helping me get organized, ‘Nilla wants to knwo how many things are written on my white board.

Answer:  White board?  What white board?

Although – actually – you’re right, that is what i need, for home for sure.  I even know where i can put it.  Cool! Going to Staples today!  Thanks!!

Mick wants to know the story behind the picture at the top of my blog.  Hmmmm.  OK.

Answer:  The short answer is that i got up the morning after an evening that had involved a session of cock worship with FS and saw the picture in my living room,  just as it is there. 

The pillow i’d been kneeling on.  The shoes i’d kicked off at some point – probably on my way to bed, and panties in a puddle.  i’m not a photographer by any means – but it just seemed so – picturesque.  And symbolic really.

The shoes had been a gift from FS {The Man i First Called Sir} on our second date – when i was still not 100% sure he was even into BDSM.  Although, looking back, only my naivite left me uncertain.

But we had been talking about shoes – we both like them.  A lot.  In our own ways.  And we had a dinner date.  When he showed up, he told me he had a gift for me, but didn’t give it to me right away.

Early in the meal, he revealed his seriously dominant charm, and i was a puddle of lust throughout the dinner.  Remember, at this point, i had been divorced a while, looking around, but without a clue of what i was doing.  Dating men off a vanilla website, hoping for a miracle, i suppose.

Which is really what happened when i met FS.  Ok, not a religious miracle maybe.  But from this vanilla website, i found a Dom who was kind and repectful and wonderfully dominant.  i learned so much from Him – really, He set a standard for anyone else.

That night in the restaurant, i was pretty much swept off my feet, with desire anyhow.  And you know, i had the safe call stuff in place.  And we were facebook friends, so if he killed me, they’d be able to find him. 

Of course i invited him to  follow me home that night…

And the gift he had for me was shoes.  Three pair of shoes – two black, both of which youall have also seen, and the one red pair. 

JM, the amazing analyst, says that shoes – heels – symbolize power.  He thought it was fascinating, and so did i, that FS had brought me a gift of power – which also makes sense if you think of it as a power exchange.  He gives – i give – it all works out beautifully, right?

Anyhow.  i can walk easily – well, kind of easily – in the black ones, at least on carpet.  More so before i gained this 10 pounds.  But the red ones?

No way.

They make my knees wobbly, and i just can’t do it.  i thought it was because they were too tight, so i took them back and traded for the next size up. 

Didn’t work.  It was a little bit better, but not much.  For a while, i was under orders from FS to practice walking in them every day, and was beginning to get better, but then i forgot and he quit asking and we quit seeing each other and that was the end of practice…

But the picture continues to symbolize submission for me – good memories and goals yet to be attained, right?  {laughing} So that’s the story.

This Q & A thing is fun – i gotta go now, but when i get a chance, i’ll run around to people’s blogs and ask questions.  Feel free to ask me more!!

8 Responses to “Answers”

  1. Mick March 12, 2011 at 6:34 am #

    I had a feeling there was a good story behind that pic. Mick

    • aisha March 12, 2011 at 12:36 pm #

      Glad you liked it, Mick!

  2. sweet kk March 12, 2011 at 6:41 am #

    yeah, i’m so glad someone asked about the pic… great story Aisha!!


  3. thesubmissivebf March 12, 2011 at 7:26 am #

    Great question, I had always wondered also.

    • aisha March 12, 2011 at 12:37 pm #

      Thanks, Sbf! (Wow, i’m writing some great responses today…)

      But thanks, all of you, for commenting. You know i love it!


  4. Donna March 12, 2011 at 3:35 pm #

    Another question. Do you find that since you have become secure in accepting your sexual submissive nature, you have a greater link to the power within you extending to all parts of your life, or do you segment; are you only in touch with that power when you are involved in actual play?

    • aisha March 12, 2011 at 4:36 pm #

      Yikes, Donna – great question! I’ll get started on an answer now…


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