A Year Ago

My first real post on my blog was a year ago today.  i wrote one on May 7, but it was titled, “Hello, World” and just said:

“This is my first post!  O, my.

Ok, this is a blog about me, aisha.  And Sir.  And submission – mine; the dominance is His.  But you probably already guessed that.

i am just beginning to figure out how this blog works.  Now to see if i can post a picture…”

and i meant “post a picture on the home page,” not on the daily blog post.  Pictures came later.

i wrote for a few weeks before i went public with it.  And then i didn’t get any comments for a long time.  i had begun to think i never would.  Then i realized maybe i should make some comments on OPB’s if i wanted some.

My first comment was from Sin, on July 1.  Woohoo!  i was so thrilled, you can’t even imagine.  The post was on Story of O and she said:

“Wow. i could have written this. It would have sounded exactly like your post. This is me. I found the book at the same age. It’s still in my bedside table. I read it and masturbated to it thousand times. I knew I didn’t want to be treated quite that way. But it was hard to find out, to explore, to understand what I was before the internet.”

Tipacanoe commented on July 11 – another big thrill.  The post was “MakingFriends,” and it came after FS and before Sir D.  It was one of my “i give up, i’ll never meet anyone” posts, and i had worked some brief fantasies into it.  Tipacanoe said:

“Fantasies are great until you have to try and go to sleep, yours sounds great to wake up too.”

Mick comments for the first time July 28.  As usual, he’s succinct:

“Hey…found you through Sin’s page, and added you to my blog role. very nice writing.”

i would be embarrassed to tell you how many times i went to his page to look at my name on his blogroll.  Then ‘Nilla shows up on the 29th.  

i had been all excited because i was getting a few hits on my blog every day, and then i discovered how many hits Sin and Mick get.  Sin said:

“Aww Aisha, I sure didn’t mean to rain on your parade – everyone starts somewhere. And there are blogs (even sex blogs) that get zillions of hits. Mine is still pretty small.

But I am VERY flattered that you like it. Thank you. I like yours too.

Good luck with the dungeon guy.”

That was right before the weekend that i went to see Sir D in Where -He-Lived, with the dungeon in his basement.  Mick said:

“Thanks for the plug, Aiesha. Well….not that sort of plug. But you know what I mean.

We met a couple over fet ife who have a dungeon. they live across the river. had drinks with them. they moved here from California and are fully into the lifestyle. Had some drinks and talked about life in the “scene”. a first for us, though now we have this compadre M, out west that we talk to as well.

Of course, we have had some rich fantasies about being invited to visit their dungeon….maybe we need to reconnect with them.

Hope your weekend visit goes well. But the anticipation is a good chunk of the fun, isn’t it?”

And then i said:

“@Mick – LOL – yeah, i knew what you meant!

I”ve been to a couple of munches and found it interesting there just to hear people talking aobut the lifestyle. I’ve never been to a play party or anything though. Yourall’s relationship with M sounds interesting.

No doubt you’re right about anticipation being a big piece of the fun!

@sin – You didn’t rain on my parade – really! It was really helpful for me to realize how much room there is for growth, and it made me quit being all mentally whiny about not getting comments. It’s all good. 

And thanks for sending good luck vibes…”

And here comes ‘Nilla:

“Hi Aisha.

when i first started just under a year ago, i was lucky to get 5 hits a day…we all start somewhere, as sin said.

i have another sex blog i write, and i don’t openly advertise it, and that blog only gets maybe 11 hits a week. if i’m lucky. but i write first and foremost for me.

and if you keep writing this wonderfully, your numbers will continue to rise!”

So i said:

“@Nilla – Having you, sin, and mick all read and comment on my blog feels kind of like having rock stars show up in my house. I LOVE your blog too.

Thank you soooo much for the kind words of encouragment. I’m really not complaining, just delighted to be where I am right now.”

And of course ‘Nilla answered:

“i read your reply to me @ work Fri night…omg i laughed aloud! me? a rock star, eh?

kewl…tho…you know i’m not really. i am just like *you*!! We all start somewhere, right?

keep writing like this and you’re numbers will climb for certain. Hope you’re Dungeon experience is awesome….can’t wait to hear about it all!”

In some ways, i always feel like that was the real beginning of the blog.  Funny.  The sense of support i was feeling at that point, mostly thanks to Sin, suddenly expanded to become community.  And it’s grown so much since then.  

{Happy sigh…}

This is my 325th post.  i’ve had over 32,000 hits, which is still absolutely nothing compared to those “rock stars,” but makes me very happy. i like to think of my blog as a “boutique blog,” not like the big conglomerate over there at UCTMW.   {laughing}

My life has changed so much, i can’t even begin to count the ways.  And if you’re reading this now, you’ve been part of that change.  i don’t want to start naming people cause that could go on for longer than i have this morning.  And i get all sentimental and misty eyed and~~

~~ really, i just want to say thanks, to each of you…

               with love,

                             aisha