Submission

11 May

 i can’t quite feel it.

The surrender.  The sense of belonging to.

i can’t quite feel it anymore.

…laughing… maybe i’ve become vanilla – lost my submissive self somewhere along the way.

That can’t really happen, can it?

i need to be tied:

Book cover - Shibari, the Art of Japanese Bondage


i need to be spanked:

Notice her legs twisting - i know what that feels like...


i need to be held.


10 Responses to “Submission”

  1. sin May 11, 2011 at 7:10 am #

    You need someone to submit to. It’s very hard to submit when there’s no one on the other end.

    It will come back.

  2. Mick May 11, 2011 at 8:02 am #

    nice illustrations, Aisha.

  3. thesubmissivebf May 11, 2011 at 8:11 am #

    I agree with Sin, it will come back.

  4. ewoman88 May 11, 2011 at 9:47 am #

    *hugs* <= not the ones you want, but here anyway 🙂

  5. littlemonkey May 11, 2011 at 10:43 am #

    The need to be touched, physically touched , by another is a powerful thing. What you are looking for is out there. You’ll find it.

    The pressure of the hands causes the springs of life to flow.
    – Tokujiro Namikoshi

  6. gofish9317 May 11, 2011 at 12:39 pm #

    that is such a beatiful blog, you cover everthing, i love it

  7. nilla May 11, 2011 at 12:42 pm #

    can’t give you what you need, but can surround you with my deep caring for you…

    love,

    nilla

  8. angel May 11, 2011 at 6:56 pm #

    hey darlin’…
    You haven’t lost it. Nor did it loose you.
    If either of these things were true, you wouldn’t have a voice to use anymore to explain any of this.
    You wouldn’t even recognize the needs anymore.

    And even if that happened,
    it comes back.

    It is a precious part of you.
    A sacred part.

    i hope you find someone worthy of your whole heart and mind. Thats quite a thing to desire….but you are quite a woman.

    Hugs to you…

  9. aisha May 11, 2011 at 8:47 pm #

    @Sin – You’re right, I don’t guess I can really be submissive by myself, can i? 🙂 Thanks for reminding me…

    @Mick – thanks! Glad you liked them!

    @Sbf – Thanks for the confidence! I appreciate it!

    @ewoman – Thank you – and many hugs back to you!

    @LM – You’re right – touch is so important to me. i love the quote – thanks.

    @gofish – You are so sweet – and you’re kind of in the same boat, aren’t you? hugs…

    @’Nilla – I love you too.

    @angel – Thank you for all the kind words and the hopeful thoughts. I hope you’re right – and for right now, I’ll trust you.

    Really, youall are so sweet and I’m so grateful for the support that I feel like a real wench for not being happy with everything I already have, especially my beloved kink friends.

    Many hugs for each of you,

    aisha

  10. nilla May 11, 2011 at 9:32 pm #

    who sez you hafta be happy and up all the time just coz you have friends who love you??

    coz dear one? we love ya crabby and pissy too.

    we’re here to listen, to hug, to hold, to cherish…but you are who you are and how you feel is valid and real and honest.

    You are so fucking amazing.

    You face life full on, and open yourself boldly.

    so if you want to walk around your house saying “FUCKING DOMS”

    you can.

    we’ll still be here.

    love,

    nilla

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