Kneel

12 May

Last night, i was feeling overwhelmed with affection and gratitude for my blogging buddies, my cyber soulmates, and thinking that i should count my blessing and be more grateful for what i have rather than bemoaning my Dom-less state.  And there’s probably some truth to that.  But ~~

~~ ‘Nilla pointed out that it’s ok to feel whatever i’m feeling, that i don’t have to be grateful all the time, that i can have the whole gamut of emotions and still be ok.

Thanks, ‘Nilla.  Of course, i needed to hear that.

It’s funny.  The things that i say to my clients all day somehow come back to me in your voices.  I can’t tell you how odd, and wonderful, and powerful it is.  The reminders of the things that i know for other people pointed back at me ~~

So thank you for that too.  

For real, much as i love youall, you don’t replace a Dom.  

Sigh.

But that’s ok.  You sure add a bunch of joy to my life.  

{Smiling…} 

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“Come here,” He says.

i stand in front of Him, half-smiling, waiting.  i am wearing His flannel shirt, unbuttoned.

The shirt,” He says, and i slip it off.   Carefully, i fold it over and lay it on the couch.  

“Get your pillow,” He says, and i’m so pleased i almost giggle.  Yes.  

“Kneel,” He says.

i lay the pillow on the floor; sink to my knees, smoothly, i hope.  

i rock back on my heels, knees apart a little, hands resting on my thighs, palms up.

Smiling… i wait.


26 Responses to “Kneel”

  1. gofish9317 May 12, 2011 at 6:01 am #

    always such wonderful insight

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 6:05 am #

      @Gofish – thank you! How are you?

      aisha

  2. Alujna May 12, 2011 at 7:16 am #

    Aisha,
    your wait, your search… it’ll pay off. You’ll find your dom when you least expect… ’cause that’s how it usually happens…lol.
    meanwhile it’s okay to not be happy… but only for a little while 😛 mourning time for domless state better be limited when you have all of us… or we’ll take it as an insult…lol

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:51 am #

      @Alujna – Thanks for the vote of confidence. And you’re right – I’m so lucky to have you all!! hugs, aisha

  3. striving for peace May 12, 2011 at 7:26 am #

    someday our Doms will come sweetie

    they will.

    promise.

    sfp

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:50 am #

      Dear Sfp – Thanks. I thought I’d go ahead and post this now – save Mick the trouble…

      hugs,

      aisha

    • sin May 12, 2011 at 8:01 am #

      I could lend you (both) part of Big Bad, just to tide you over if you like. What I won’t do for friends! 🙂

      • aisha May 12, 2011 at 8:05 am #

        Dear Sin,

        You are too good to me.

        Um, which part would you lend me? 🙂

        aisha

      • sin May 12, 2011 at 10:56 pm #

        Aisha, I could lend you his dark side. There’s plenty to go round. Should I send over a pile of applications for that?

      • striving for peace May 13, 2011 at 7:05 am #

        Golly — soooo generous

      • sin May 13, 2011 at 9:53 am #

        Well, there IS enough of that to share!

  4. Mick May 12, 2011 at 7:57 am #

    thanks for having my back there, Aisha.

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 8:05 am #

      …laughing… don’t mention it Mick. You know, I live to serve. That urge has to find expression somewhere!

      aisha

  5. nilla May 12, 2011 at 8:07 am #

    i could be practicing my Domme skillz on you…

    just sayin’….

    *grin*

    nilla

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 8:11 am #

      @’Nilla – I didn’t even realize you had Domme skills – really???? aisha

  6. nilla May 12, 2011 at 8:40 am #

    teeny tiny skillz…i’ve played a teeeeeeny bit with another sub..

    my kink isn’t pain. my kink is way more submission, but i do like to boss people around, too. *smiles*

    i wonder if it’s more “mommy syndrome” than actual Domme, but who knows?

    nilla

    • ewoman88 May 12, 2011 at 9:34 am #

      *sending application for nilla’s training school* 😛

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:30 pm #

      And just look at this, “nilla! You mention your teeny tiny skills, and they’re lining up to apply.

      Wow, that would be quite the fantasy,wouldn’t it? ‘Nilla’s Training School. Yikes!

      hugs,

      aisha

  7. ewoman88 May 12, 2011 at 9:35 am #

    aisha, your little pictures of submission are so sweet and happy, i hope you find your Dom and i wish you peace 🙂

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:31 pm #

      Thanks for the good wishes, ewoman – I totally appreciate that! And congratulations on being the first in line at ‘Nilla’s school… 🙂

      hugs,

      aisha

  8. angel May 12, 2011 at 11:01 am #

    nilla,

    Thanks for killing it with the word “mommy” in there.
    Damn it.

    😛

    aisha,
    Some day your prince will come. With all of his parts, i hope. (Oh my God. i just wrote, “with off of his parts”…i’m blaming this one on no sleep. Really. Shut up, Sigmund).

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:33 pm #

      Mmmmmhmmm – zere are no miztakes… laughing…

      But I’m glad you’re on the “my prince will cum” bandwagon too! {Every time I say that, the song starts playing in my head… complete with little tootsie Snow White dancing around.}

      Thanks and hugs,

      aisha

  9. knottylittlemonkey May 12, 2011 at 1:59 pm #

    Lucky girl. I only get a pillow when I’m under the computer desk.:(

    He’s out there, aisha. The larger your network of friends, the more likely that he will find you.

    Hugs.

    p.s. would you forward me that application for ‘nilla’s training school?

    • aisha May 12, 2011 at 7:35 pm #

      @LM – Well, I think my knees might be older than yours….

      And thanks for the encouragement – I’ll keep being available.

      And I’ll send the application on!

      hugs,

      aisha

  10. aisha May 13, 2011 at 10:01 am #

    Ok, so i guess i’m taking applications for sharing MoS’s dark side too, since Sin has so graciously offered….

    And i’m getting off here NOW – i need to be doing other stuff~~

    BYEEEEEE…

    aisha

  11. nilla May 13, 2011 at 12:20 pm #

    there could be a story there….

    just sayin’….

    *cheshire cat grin*

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