What Did It Mean?

14 Nov

So what did it mean – that little fantasy about ‘Nella, {which you must remember really had nothing to do with me or ‘Nilla.}  Sin asked in the comments yesterday.

And that’s what my Sir wanted to know Saturday night, when He had me tied to His coffee table and was interrogating me about it.  One hand on a nipple, the other playing with my exposed pussy, fingers probing and all.

It was kinda hard to think.  Of course, that amused Him.  “I know it’s hard to think,” He says.  “I want it that way.  That’s so you have to say whatever’s in your mind, you can’t filter it.”

Fortunately, i had already thought about it.   After all, i was a little surprised at the fantasy myself.   It had appeared fully developed in my mind, demanding to be written.

Of course, it was partly your fault, and ‘Nilla’s.  You commenters were the ones who suggested that Sir X should have spanked me even though ‘Nilla was here that night.  Then ‘Nilla emailed me that she would have gone for a walk while He did ~ and written a story in her head called “The Spanking” ~

And then, the fantasy appeared.

It’s clearly a sensual humiliation piece.  Being spanked has an element of humiliation anyhow, and being spanked in front of a friend?  Whew.   Ups that ante immensely.

i think of sensual humiliation as something that’s kind of embarrassing, but turns you on, and then you’re embarrassed because it turns you on, and then that’s humiliating, so it turns you on even more and ~ on and on, right?  This story has that ~ and still has it a bit as i write about it.

Also, there’s a strong “being controlled” element that gets me in the fantasy.  When Sir Z points out that alisha has agreed to do what He says when she’s wearing the collar?  Even when He just tells her “wait here” while He gets the bag out of the car.  Very hot, from my perspective.

And there’s an element of objectification.  alisha is not consulted about what’s happening, not asked what she thinks about it.  When Sir Z starts talking about her to ‘Nella, that factor is there.  alisha is just an object to be discussed.

i think i managed to explain some of this to Sir X, as He was controlling and objectifying me there on His coffee table.   He listened carefully.

“So,” He says.  “This sensual humiliation thing, getting spanked in front of a friend would do it, right?”

i agree, or maybe i’m just moaning, it’s hard to say.

“Well,” He continues, “Does it have to be a woman?  Does it have to be a friend?  Could it be a stranger?”

i gasp, “O, um, yeah, no, um, could be a stranger.”

“Hmmm,” He is thoughtful.  “What about 15 strangers?  Could it be 15 strangers?  Would that do it?”

And i don’t know if my “Omigod,” is in response to His hands or His words or both.

“Um, i guess, um, i guess it could,” i stammer.

“Well,” He says, “I guess we’ll have to see when we go to this thing in February, this Winter Wickedness.”

And that was the end of the discussion, thank goodness.

Faithful wanted to know what happened with The Phallus.  You know, tied up as i was on the table, He put it to good use…

AND ~ omigosh, i had almost forgotten this ~ while He was probing my depths, so to speak, He says something like:

“So would it have to be spanking in front of strangers?  Or would something like this count too?  Would it be “sensual humiliation” if I were to do this in front of 15 strangers?”

At this point, my thought processes aren’t quite clear enough to fully register the question, much less answer, i am pretty much reduced to moaning with an occasional, O, mmmm, yes, omigod… o, yes.

And Winter Wickedness is a long way off.  i’m not worrying about that today.  

AND ~ i almost forgot to tell youall ~ as i’m lying there, helpless and exposed, He suddenly shows me this ~ thing ~ these long sticks, two of them, and  He says “Do you remember what these are for?’

i don’t, for a long minute, i know i should, but i don’t ~

Two long sticks, something wrapped around the middle, holding them together, little things at each end, holding them closed there too ~ now what was it…???

~  and then ~ o, then i do, i remember, so i shout it out, feeling all triumphant ~ “For NIPPLES!”

And He smiles sweetly, “That’s right,” and then i realize, o, shit ~ for nipples.  Omigod.

12 Responses to “What Did It Mean?”

  1. perfectlips November 14, 2011 at 8:15 am #

    A similar fantasy surfaced as part of your Major story, with the other sub watching as the Major showed you off to his Dom friend.

    The Alisha/’Nella fantasy is much stronger (for me): the shock, the sudden matter-of-factly rough treatment, the mundane setting. Perhaps most of all, that It Could Have Happened! ‘Nella would have been the perfect witness: as shocked as Alisha, there as a civilian, but with a safety net of inside knowledge.

    Acting out a fantasy at Winter Wickedness: that would be a lot of fun, and it would be a way for a sub to enjoy sensual humiliation in a safe, controlled environment, but I can’t help thinking that if something like your Alisha/’Nella fantasy came true, that would be a lot more affecting.

    (In the meantime it seems your reality seems quite as engaging as your fantasy.)

    • aisha November 14, 2011 at 7:39 pm #

      Dear PL,

      What an astute observation! I hadn’t thought about the overlap with that part of The Major fantasy, but yes. It’s certainly there.

      And I agree with the whole rest of your comment too – you describe perfectly the feelings connected with the Alisha/Nella fantasy and how it would be different from strangers at Winter Wickedness.

      Very cool, thank so much for sharing your insight.

      Laughing… and yes, my reality is pretty darn delightful!!


  2. ahiddenslave November 14, 2011 at 9:01 am #

    Dear aisha,
    It sounds like winter Wickedness is going to be a Whole lot more fun….I loved this post, it made me smile, imagining the state that you had got yourself into , with Sir X’s help… that feeling of being unable to form a coherent sentence says it all.

    • aisha November 14, 2011 at 7:40 pm #


      Yes, that whole “can’t talk, can’t quite think” thing is an amazing place to be, isn’t it??



  3. vanillamom November 14, 2011 at 9:15 am #

    okay, i’m loving this…he is SO like my M….

    and if you think the convo is over, missy? Think again. He’s only put it in park, idling there until He takes it out and looks at it again.

    btw? i am kinda thinking aloud here, but it seems to me that it would be way easier to be spanked, fondled, nipple-tortured in front of strangers….you’d kinda think you’d never see them again, at such an event, right?

    but in front of a friend?

    One who will remember the experience, remember your intimate reactions to it?

    That drives it to an entirely new level, doesn’t it? (and that’s not even saying that said friend might write a story about the event, right?)

    laughing wickedly…

    • aisha November 14, 2011 at 7:43 pm #

      Dear ‘Nilla

      Nooooo, it’s done, I’m sure we’r through talking about it…

      Ok, maybe not. laughing…we’ll see.

      And YES, ok, you’re right, it would be easier in front of strangers – in front of you would have been – gulp ~ um, sheesh.

      You know.

      It would have been wild. Particularly, you know, if it had been you, because you’re not this super experienced, been to lots of play parties, seen it all already friend. I mean, if it was Ms. Constance, she might be like, O, can i help? I have my own canes… you know.

      You ~ laughing ~ it would have been a whole trip. With or without you writing about it.



      • perfectlips November 15, 2011 at 4:17 am #

        > … if it was Ms. Constance, she might be like, O, can i help?
        > I have my own canes …

        Is this a new fantasy you’re getting ready for us?


      • aisha November 15, 2011 at 4:18 am #

        Dear PL,

        Nooooooo – but thanks for the thought! laughing…


  4. sin November 14, 2011 at 9:20 am #

    very complete answer… thank you

    • aisha November 14, 2011 at 7:44 pm #

      Dear Sin,

      You are very welcome! Thanks for asking.


  5. Mick November 14, 2011 at 9:05 pm #

    you, filter?


    • aisha November 15, 2011 at 3:08 am #


      LOL ~ point taken.

      But you know, I might hold back with Sir – that could have long lasting consequences….


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