Monday Review

12 Dec

Last week, i made some commitments to things i was going to do.  Looking back at the week ~

~ i did get my desk at work cleared off.  i halfway got my desk at home cleared off.  More importantly, i haven’t completely covered my desk at work again yet.  It’s not pristine, but it’s not bad.

~ i ate some high carb, sugary things, but only when they actually danced on the table and called my name.  Chocolate cake with peanut butter icing at a staff going away party, muffins that someone made and brought in.  It would have been churlish not to, right?  lol.    But even then, only a little bit of it.

~ i didn’t quite stay caught up with paperwork, but real close.  If i do a little bit this morning, i’ll be back in good shape.

~ i exercised every day during the week, but then it fell apart on the weekend.  Which makes no sense, i have more time to do it then.  

And mindfulness.  i was more mindful.  i’ve been reading a book by Thich Naht Hahn, who’s fairly awesome.  He’s got a terrific book called “Ten Mindful Movement.”  i bought the book:

http://www.amazon.com/Mindful-Movements-Ten-Exercises-Well-Being/dp/1888375795

which comes with a DVD.  You can also see him on youtube:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWerJwf3-3I

This week, i’ll take time to practice the mindful movements.

There are so many things in my life that are changing, some of them feel positive, some not so much.  My frustration level at work is ridiculously low ~ not for clients, or even staff, but for management.  Which, since i’m part of management, is not so helpful.

i want.

i want things to be different at work, but the way things are is driven {in part} by societal changes and legislative decisions that my agency can’t control.

i want things to be different at my church, and for sure i can’t control that.

i want my daughter’s life to be the way i want it to be.  It would be nice for me if she decided to stay here forever.  i’m pretty sure i don’t get to make that choice.  Laughing… ok, i’m 100% sure i don’t get to choose for her.

All those things i want the way i want them, and none of them in my control.   What a great opportunity for frigging growth, right?

And even with Sir ~ where i am so happy ~ if i’m not careful, i will forget to appreciate what i have and get lost in the desire to have more.

Pema Chodron tells the story of tigers:

“There is a story of a woman running away from tigers. She runs and runs and the tigers are getting closer and closer. When she comes to the edge of a cliff, she sees some vines there, so she climbs down and holds on to the vines. Looking down, she sees that there are tigers below her as well. She then notices that a mouse is gnawing away at the vine to which she is clinging. She also sees a beautiful little bunch of strawberries close to her, growing out of a clump of grass. She looks up and she looks down. She looks at the mouse. Then she just takes a strawberry, puts it in her mouth, and enjoys it thoroughly. Tigers above, tigers below. This is actually the predicament that we are always in, in terms of our birth and death. Each moment is just what it is. It might be the only moment of our life; it might be the only strawberry we’ll ever eat. We could get depressed about it, or we could finally appreciate it and delight in the preciousness of every single moment of our life.” 
― Pema ChödrönThe Wisdom of No Escape: How to love yourself and your world

This week, i will remember to eat the strawberry.

6 Responses to “Monday Review”

  1. greengirl December 12, 2011 at 8:03 am #

    You know – at the point in the story where she notices the strawberries – i figured she was going to offer one to the mouse to get it to stop gnawing on the vine. Of course – that still leaves her with nowhere safe to go – and just forestalls the inevitable, and she misses out on the strawberry…. Probably says something about me, maybe i needed that story to think about. Thanks.

    • aisha December 12, 2011 at 9:28 pm #

      @Gg,

      Funny ~ the first time i heard this story, i thought the same thing!!

      The therapist who co-leads a group with me always tells this story at the appropriate moment ~ i didn’t really appreciate it til about the third or fourth time i heard it.

      aisha

  2. Donna December 12, 2011 at 8:59 am #

    You know, if it had been McGyver, he would have turned the strawberry into a smoke bomb, using the soil he analyzed with the special tint on his sunglasses, and then used the smoke bomb to scare the tigers away (without hurting them, of course). Then he would have made an escalator out of the vines. I’m pretty sure I saw that episode.

    • aisha December 12, 2011 at 9:29 pm #

      Dear Donna,

      Dang – that’s right! I’d forgotten that episode.

      Laughing. Out. Loud.

      aisha

      {giggling}

  3. smilingsoul December 12, 2011 at 4:33 pm #

    Strawberries in the winter. What a delight! I bet they are the sweetest you have ever tasted.

    • aisha December 12, 2011 at 9:29 pm #

      @Smilingsoul,

      Smiling… yes.

      aisha

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