Saturday

23 Feb

Saturday, He has a plan.

i don’t know what it is.  Yet.

He says it is more than dinner.

More than touching and stroking and caressing.

More than fucking.

i had a miserable day at work on Tuesday.  

It looked like some good things that we expected to happen, weren’t going to.  i could have been ok with that.  Then it looked like some really bad things were going to happen, and lots of people – clients and staff – were going to suffer because of it.  It looked like the good things were lost through corporate negligence, and the bad things coming through another organization’s bureaucratic rigidity and my organization’s mindless indifference and acceptance.

I was distraught.

This was on top of the usual issues and problems, catastrophes and misery.

i was overwhelmed. 

So on Tuesday, we were supposed to have gone out for dinner, and He thought we needed some down time instead.  So we ate in, and He calmed and soothed me.   He took care of me.

i felt better, and appreciated it. 

Then He warned me.  About Saturday.

He says it will be structured.  

He says, “you can relax and submit and I will do the rest, or rather, you will do the rest, as I dictate. No decisions, no worries, just submit.”

i know ~ He tells me ~ there will be  a red ass involved (mine.)

Then, late yesterday afternoon, the new, overwhelming issues at work got resolved.  Yep.

The good things are happening.  The bad things are not.

That’s partly cause i put a bunch of energy into arguing and persuading and playing with numbers and making phone calls, and so did some other people, and then some people had to listen and act on what we were saying, and now?

It’s all good.

So i was doing happy dances all over the place.  Then ~ i had this horrible thought ~

what if Sir was just doing whatever He was going to do on Saturday because i had been so upset?  What if He changed His plans now that i was ok?

Yes, i know that was goofy, goofy, goofy.  But at the moment, it made perfect sense.

And really ~ my 2nd husband?  That’s how he was.  He was at his best when i was at my worst.  If i could have just stayed messed up, or sick, or pathetic in some way, we might still be married.

Giggling.. really, that’s the truth.  

But i had this scary moment of “what if?”  

So ~ i asked Him.  i was kinda proud of myself for asking.  And at first He didn’t even understand what i was talking about, so i explained my worry, and admitted it was goofy, and He said:

“No my Saturday plans were not just to appease your upset little self,   The Dom in me reminds you that it would not be that way… No it’s much deeper than that.”

And my heart thrilled.  i can’t wait.

14 Responses to “Saturday”

  1. sin February 23, 2012 at 7:44 am #

    Good for you for fixing things.

    Interesting about the husband who was at his best when you were at your worst. I had a guy like that. And he … oh never mind, that’s a whole long story.

    You must be excited about Saturday.

    -sin

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:40 pm #

      @Sin,

      You too? Interesting, isn’t it? i think of it as knight-in-shining-armor syndrome, and nowadays, it makes me walk in the opposite direction Tell me the story sometime!

      i am excited…

      aisha

  2. Striving for Peace February 23, 2012 at 7:48 am #

    So happy it worked out
    and happy that you were all able to see
    your work to MAKE it work out um — work out

    because that’s empowering isn’t it?
    to be able to take action

    and

    oh my
    about your Saturday

    I’m glad you are spending the time
    to take care of each other

    but it’s also good to be decadent sometimes

    sfp

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:41 pm #

      Dear Sfp,

      Yep, me too, happy beyond happy. 🙂

      And excited, can’t wait excited for Saturday.

      aisha

  3. vanillamom February 23, 2012 at 7:50 am #

    that’s what my Master/Dom calls “turning up the knob another notch”…and they *don’t* tell you, just occasionally add little ‘tweaks” and …it builds, aisha. The lust, the …anticipation….it all builds up to a fever pitch.

    My knob is being turned this week as well…(oh, was that a double entendre? giggle)

    WE’re so lucky, aren’t we?

    love,

    nilla

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:45 pm #

      Hey, ‘Nilla,

      You can double entendre on my comment page any time you want to. i like it. 🙂

      And yes, upping the ante little by little we move toward Saturday… i can’t wait!

      aisha

  4. vanillamom February 23, 2012 at 7:51 am #

    p.s. so so so glad that your work issues got straightened out. You do many good things, and let your voice ring out…good for you!!

    it’s not easy, that thing you do? But yay to you for doing it, and so well, too.

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:45 pm #

      And thank you, “nilla.

      i love my job, but occasioanlly, it eats me alive and spits me out…

      aisha

  5. Dancing February 23, 2012 at 9:36 am #

    I just love anticipation. relish in it.

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:46 pm #

      @Dancing ~~

      Yes. Me too. Sometimes it’s actually the best part, but probably not this time…

      aisha

  6. mouse February 23, 2012 at 2:40 pm #

    Well can’t wait to read all about it after!

    Hugs,
    mouse

    • aisha February 23, 2012 at 8:46 pm #

      @Mouse,

      Well, and you know me, i’m sure i’ll have plenty to say!!

      aisha

  7. jade February 24, 2012 at 8:32 am #

    Doesn’t the universe know that your birthday is supposed to be a National Holiday, replete with a happy (or non existant) workday? Good grief. i’m sorry that you had such a hard time but it made the victory of getting it all worked out even sweeter, no? And…if you think about it…your wish is already working. Buerocratic stuff almost never resolves itself in a day, no matter how many phone calls or right words a person says. So it must be….birthday wish. Hey, it more than worked last year. 😀

    i’m happy for you that he seems to know what you need and provides it, even when you are not a hot mess. Cause really, who wants to live as Mrs. Hot Mess?

    Glad this one brings out the Ms. Hot instead! Enjoy your Saturday and good for you for just asking him what you needed clarified.

    • aisha February 24, 2012 at 9:37 am #

      @Jade,

      Laughing… i think you’re right – it was kind of magical how it worked out.

      And yes, omigosh, that’s great – Ms. Hot Mess, not so cool. My Sir is really, too incredibly wonderful. If this year’s birthday wish works that well, there’s no telling where i’ll be this time next year….

      Thanks, Jade!!

      aisha

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