Unbalanced

10 May

Noooo, not the nipple clamps.  The nipple clamps are always perfectly balanced these days.  Just ask me.

No, my life feels unbalanced.  Not in a bad way.  Lots of good, good things happening.  It feels like there’s so much growth ~

yesterday was fun and challenging and exhausting and by the end of the day, i could have fallen asleep standing up.

Today, i have a whole different part of my life to focus on.  It will be fun and challenging and exhausting too.

This is all good ~ i’m not complaining at all.

Tomorrow, i have a whole different set of things to do and focus on ~ no repeats yet ~ still fun {except for the quarterly mind-numbingly boring meeting}, and challenging and probably exhausting.

Saturday ~ yes.  Different challenges.  Different fun.  And i get to pack for vacation for real ~ woohooo!!

So i’m not complaining.  At  all.  i guess i’m just laying it out and looking at it.

And there is a sense of ~ i don’t know ~ at the end of the day, when i’m tired and satisfied, there is a sense that i have been so absorbed in that day that i need to run around and check on the rest of my life.   i’m working on not doing that.  On letting everything else rest too until it’s time to focus there.

Sir is a constant thread, and adds so much to my life.  i need that connectedness with someone who sees me.  i suspect He’s not perfect {gasp} and He may not live up to my own fantasies of whatever.  But i love who He is.

i ran across this the other day, and was surprised and delighted to recognize how many of these practices are already part of my life.  And i’m not sure why i have the urge to share this here, but i do, so i am.

Namaste.

5 Responses to “Unbalanced”

  1. sin May 10, 2012 at 7:45 am #

    perhaps your individual days are unbalanced but it sounds like as a whole things are pretty diverse, and probably pretty balanced.

    I feel like your tree needs children on it. Watching your child sleep, reading to a child, talking with a child… the mom in me isn’t comfortable with them not there. I don’t know, maybe I’m missing the point.

    -sin

    • aisha May 10, 2012 at 7:50 am #

      Hey, Sin,

      Yes, i think you’re right. This post insisted on starting that way – i don’t know why. Well, because that’s how it feels, i guess, even though it’s not logical.

      Anyhow – i agree about the children piece too. Very cool. They actually have a tree you can down-load from the website that doesn’t have the words already on it so you can put it whatever practices you think should be there.

      Would it be a child branch? Or a nurturing branch? In any case, i think you’re absolutely right.

      aisha

  2. mouse May 10, 2012 at 11:17 am #

    aisha,

    Think you’re doing pretty darn good…goodness you’re going away on vacation soon…mouse is always tied up in knots before she travels.

    The tree is interesting and mouse does agree with Sin, watching a baby sleep is WONDERFUL (especially after they’re been crying for hours). It’s very relaxing actually.

    Hugs,
    mouse

  3. faerie May 10, 2012 at 1:22 pm #

    Love the tree, I have many of those practices in my life too. Sounds like you are doing very well with focusing on what you need to focus on at the moment and letting the rest go. Good for you 🙂

  4. jade May 10, 2012 at 9:57 pm #

    (smiles) What “The Giving Tree” really looks like. And…yes…(wistful sigh) watching babies sleep remind me how close we really are to God/Goddess.

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