Vanilla Days

4 Jun

 i’m feeling very vanilla today.  And yesterday.  Maybe it was all the organizing i did ~ cleaning out the closet in the hallway, throwing away some medication that expired back in 2010, and so on.  Went out and bought some plastic containers to organize my junk.  

The munch the other night didn’t even feel very D/s.  It was nice to see Ms. Constance, and Drew, and Caile, and a few other people, but the venue was loud, there wasn’t really much conversation.  The food was mediocre.  Not that the food matters, but still.

Sigh.

How quickly we go from ecstatic to flat.  For no good reason.

Or maybe i’m blues’ed out because i didn’t finish the cleaning out the closet thing, so there’s still crap all over my kitchen table.  Yeah, that could be it. 

i’m going to a cocktail reception fund-raiser after work tonight, that should be fun, right?

Sigh…

It could be the 35 changes that are coming up in my life in the next month.  All of which are good, and could make me feel happy.  But instead i feel flat, very vanilla, and a little blue.

What?  i hear people out there saying that you don’t get to be happy, happy, happy all the time?  Shhhhh!   Don’t tell me that!

Wait ~ that’s not youall?  That’s me saying it?  

O.

“Our notions about happiness entrap us. We forget that they are just ideas. Our idea of happiness can prevent us from actually being happy. We fail to see the opportunity for joy that is right in front of us when we are caught in a belief that happiness should take a particular form.” 
~~ Thich Nhat Hanh

12 Responses to “Vanilla Days”

  1. vanillamom June 4, 2012 at 8:20 am #

    🙂

    Ah, those voices in our heads. Nasty little fuckers sometimes.

    You’re cranked into vanilla mode and I’m gearing up into D/s…feeling very turned on, very submissive…gathering myself up for Sunday with Master.

    nilla

    • aisha June 5, 2012 at 5:21 am #

      Hey, ‘Nilla,

      Well, apparently i’ll have to live vicariously through you for a while here. Thank goodness for “going to kink camp” stories!

      hugs,

      aisha

  2. faithful June 4, 2012 at 8:53 am #

    Sometimes life and a big dose of vanilla comes our way…. and it makes us (me) appreciate the value of D/s that much more.

    ~faithful

    • aisha June 5, 2012 at 5:22 am #

      Hi, Faithful,

      Isn’t that the truth! You know, not that there’s anything wrong with vanilla… But yeah, i guess it does make us more appreciative when we’ve missed the kink for a bit.

      aisha

  3. Kitty the Submissive Wife June 4, 2012 at 10:05 am #

    Intensity is a tough thing to keep going all the time. Do you think we become adrenalaine junkies through D/s?

    Change, btw, even when good, can be stressfull. Take it easy on you.

    • aisha June 5, 2012 at 5:26 am #

      Hi, Kitty,

      Yeah, it is. And i think i’ve always been a bit of an adrenaline junky, in a kind of quiet way. For sure kink has made it worse. Or better.

      Sigh… i know good change is stressful. i’ll try to take it easy on me…

      thank you,

      aisha

  4. yesthankyousir June 4, 2012 at 4:04 pm #

    I love that quote. Seriously so much. And no we can’t be happy happy all the time. Observe your blue times, it could be your bodies way of tuning in you know. And its a full moon out.

    • aisha June 5, 2012 at 5:40 am #

      Hi, Andi,

      Glad you like the quote. 🙂

      And yeah, you might be right. i need to flow, to listen to myself. And the moon… be in touch with the universe…

      thanks,

      aisha

  5. abby June 4, 2012 at 4:55 pm #

    I so love that quote,
    It reminds me to live in the moment…it is the moments not the days that we remember. Change, good or bad, is stressful…be good to yourself. abby

    • aisha June 5, 2012 at 5:41 am #

      Thanks, Abby, i’m glad you liked it.

      Yes, it is the moments that matter.

      And thanks for the good advice too! i’ll try the “give myself a break” thing… although it’s not my best skill!

      Thanks,

      aisha

  6. mouse June 5, 2012 at 12:03 pm #

    Change, good bad or indifferent sucks sometimes.

    Hope the fundraiser was a fun at least.

    Hugs,
    mouse

  7. Giggling Bunny June 7, 2012 at 2:15 pm #

    Sorry I havent been keeping up in the blogging world. Are you still with your sir?

    I can relate to feeling vanilla. Daddy and I can have a slightly vanilla take on a lot of things and in a lot of spaces, we can seem vanilla. When I’m not with Daddy, I definitely feel pretty vanilla sometimes too.

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