New

3 Jul

Yesterday was my first day not working at my old job.  It was plenty busy, but very different. 

Um, when i say “busy”, i don’t necessarily mean work-like ~ i spent several hours holding my granddaughter… pretty tough times.  🙂

At home, we are still moving furniture and such, and i suspect we will be for a very long time.  i did some of that yesterday too, and feel  a little achy for it this morning.

There is newness between my Sir and me.  We’re still learning how we are together ~ and i hope we will always be learning each other.  Bringing “beginner’s mind” to the relationship.

Already, He understands me in ways that no one else has even tried to see.  i don’t mean sex or kink things, although that too.  But He asks me questions about things that no one else has been curious about. 

It’s an odd feeling, and sometimes i get a touch defensive.  i imagine criticism, and get tense.  But then He assures me that it’s not, or says something that eases it, or just smiles at me, and it’s ok.

A couple of times, i’ve felt His dominance and realized ~ really realized ~ that this relationship will change my life.  It’s an exciting and scary feeling.  

 

22 Responses to “New”

  1. appy July 3, 2012 at 6:48 am #

    I love it that you are so open and honest about your feelings. That’s good.

    appy

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:26 am #

      Thanks, appy!

      If we can’t be open and honest about our feelings, we might as well be in a vanilla relationship… lol, lol…. just kidding.

      🙂

      aisha

  2. sin July 3, 2012 at 6:51 am #

    nice!
    -sin

  3. yesthankyousir July 3, 2012 at 7:11 am #

    I’m excited for you both. How wonderful that you are both equally as lucky to have found each other

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:27 am #

      Thank you, Andi. It is nice, and super nice that he says it too.

      aisha

  4. vanillamom July 3, 2012 at 7:44 am #

    When we go back to the beginnings of our blogs…our very public chronicles of part of our life-journeys…you can see how very much all of us have changed. You’ve moved from a place of isolation, to sharing your most intimate of places…your bed, your kitchen, even your bathroom.

    Hoping that there are always new things to discover along your new path…

    Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
    And sorry I could not travel both
    And be one traveler, long I stood
    And looked down one as far as I could
    To where it bent in the undergrowth;

    Then took the other, as just as fair,
    And having perhaps the better claim,
    Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
    Though as for that the passing there
    Had worn them really about the same,

    And both that morning equally lay
    In leaves no step had trodden black.
    Oh, I kept the first for another day!
    Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
    I doubted if I should ever come back.

    I shall be telling this with a sigh
    Somewhere ages and ages hence:
    Two roads diverged in a wood, and I–
    I took the one less traveled by,
    And that has made all the difference.

    nilla

    • vanillamom July 3, 2012 at 7:44 am #

      *The Road Not Taken, Robert Frost

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:28 am #

      Love that poem, Ms. ‘Nilla. Thank you.

      We have made some huge changes, haven’t we? Amazing…

      love,

      aisha

  5. faithful July 3, 2012 at 9:08 am #

    Love that you said “At home, we”

    You didn’t say “At my home, we”

    It is wonderful when it is life changing huh?

    ~faithful

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:31 am #

      Hi, Faithful,

      And i didn’t even think about it. He belongs here, he really does.

      Yes ~ life changing is wonderful, on a good day. 🙂

      aisha

  6. faerie July 3, 2012 at 10:15 am #

    Change is always scary, but you are brave enough to face the scary things. I think this change is going to be glorious for you both 🙂

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:35 am #

      Thanks for the confidence, Faerie,

      I do too ~ think it’s going to be glorious. In fact, it already is…

      aisha

  7. little monkey July 3, 2012 at 11:43 am #

    In my mind, those questions he asks are more valuable than any roses or diamonds would be (I reserve the right to exempt chocolate from the equation). I’m so happy for you, that you have found the right traveling companion for this new adventure!

    “How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being.”
    ~~~ Oscar Wilde

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:41 am #

      Thanks, LM ~ great quote! Very Oscar Wilde…

      i think you’re right ~ those questions build intimacy more powerfully than anything else, don’t they? and they’re an expression of love. 🙂

      aisha

  8. Fondlers Anonymous July 3, 2012 at 1:24 pm #

    “sometimes i get a touch defensive. i imagine criticism, and get tense”

    I’m still trying to get past this in my relationship. and I can imagine how comforting it must be when He reassures you it’s NOT.

    Lovely to hear you are spending time holding the little one, and even happier to hear that you’re so positive about this new “state” of your relationship!

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:45 am #

      Hi, FA,

      It is difficult, isn’t it? And it’s not just verbal reassurance, at least it doesn’t seem like it. It really seems sincere. Good luck with managing it in your relationship.

      I’m am enjoying Little Bits! Between her and Sir, life is just heavenly…

      Thanks for sharing the joy!

      aisha

  9. Wordwytch July 3, 2012 at 2:37 pm #

    Ah, the delight, the love of holding a grandbaby. Especially when they are so small, that all you have are emotions. No words, no agendas, just love. Oh, and the fact that when they’re messy, you can hand them back to their parents.

    As for living with one’s Sir… I have to admit that while I have lived with Wolf for over 8 years, it wasn’t until just the last year that I realized how much of a D/s undertone our relationship had at times.

    You mentioned. “Already, He understands me in ways that no one else has even tried to see. i don’t mean sex or kink things, although that too. But He asks me questions about things that no one else has been curious about.” I understand that so well. 🙂 Wolf understands when I stress and get touch hungry. It isn’t about sex, but literally touch. What I haven’t decided is if it is the nature of the men, the men that become Doms or is it a melding of the two.

    Lots of love and hugs!

    • aisha July 4, 2012 at 10:59 am #

      Hi, Wordwytch,

      Thanks for another thought-provoking comment! There is something about Doms, isn’t there? I don’t know either, which came first or how it works, but it is awesome.

      hugs,

      aisha

      • Wordwytch July 4, 2012 at 2:19 pm #

        Yes, there certainly is. 🙂 And as much as I might think it is a learned thing, it is also intrinsic within the individual man. A friend of mine called and was talking to Wolf in normal tones. Then I had him say something to her in that ‘voice’… I shivered. She shivered. It was a lovely thing. 🙂

  10. jadescastle July 5, 2012 at 12:02 am #

    You have such a wonderful mind. And you inspire me. Thank you.

    • aisha July 5, 2012 at 6:07 am #

      Thanks, Jadescastle, for reading, for commenting, and for the kind words!!

      aisha

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