Day 28 ~ Questions ~ 30 Days of Submission

28 Sep

Has your submission ever let you down? Have you ever been criticized for your submission? Have you ever regretted being or feeling submissive in a moment or in a relationship? Have you ever looked back and realized you made a mistake and how did you handle your submission going forward from that.

i guess the short answer here is “no.”  

i mean, i’ve looked back and realized i made a mistake about a zillion times, but i don’t think i changed “how i handle my submission.”  In fact, i’m not sure i handle my submission, i suspect it handles me.

Nobody’s ever criticized me for my submission, because i only tell people who would be accepting.  And i’ve never had anybody do that, “you’re not submissive enough,” or, “you’re not a ‘true’ submissive,” thing.  Or if i did, i quit talking to them so quickly that  i’ve forgotten them completely.

In my youth, in my vanilla life, i used to know people who would fuss at me for letting other people take advantage of me.  But eventually, i realized that the person fussing usually just wanted me to spend more time on them and less on other people.  i rarely did more for someone than i was comfortable doing.

And i’m babbling now.

Not feeling so great today, don’t know if it’s allergies, or if i’m trying to not get sick.  It is allergy season here in Where-i-Live, but it’s always allergy season here.  Drinking orange juice, taking my vitamins, and might add chicken soup for lunch.

i have my volunteer gig today, and a full morning schedule, plans for the evening, and hopes for a nap in between.

Last night, i came home late.  Sir had some rope and the strip of wood He got from the junkyard laid out on the bed.  i cocked an eyebrow at Him, and He just nodded.

The tether has a permanent spot next to my side of the bed now.  It’s become the norm for Him to spank me and tie me to the tether when He tucks me in.   When He comes to bed, He unties me.

i suppose in a while He’ll get tired of doing that every night, and that will be ok too.  But i sure am enjoying it now.

Sir and i haven’t had a chance to talk about His answers to the Dominance questions, but i’m still planning to blog on that.   Maybe tomorrow.  Now it’s time to go start the day…

7 Responses to “Day 28 ~ Questions ~ 30 Days of Submission”

  1. vanillamom September 28, 2012 at 8:03 am #

    Feels like a lot of people around me are sick…i got a brush of it when my kids were down with it…and the allergies that come with fall have been a real pain with the dry air. Thankfully it is cold and rainy today, so that will knock a bit of it down. And you’ve had a TON of rain in your neck of the woods of late. (late blooming flowers right?) Hope you shake it fast…

    as to your bedtime routine…i think it is sweet and awesome. What a way to cement ownership…:)

    nilla

    • aisha September 30, 2012 at 11:24 am #

      Hey, ‘nilla,

      Yeah, it’s turned out to be a frigging cold, so i can’t go get some antibiotics and make it go away. Sucks.

      And our nighttime routine is sweet, and he’s sweet, and if i was any more in-love, i think i’d probably burst.

      hugs,

      aisha

  2. mouse September 28, 2012 at 12:26 pm #

    Aisha — honestly mouse has had a thousand things to say…lol. Got distracted and can’t get them back (grrr). Hope you’re feeling better, honestly mouse feels like she’s been fighting something too.

    Oh, one of the things mouse was going to remark on was being tethered to the bed…honestly mouse loves that feeling!

    Hugs,
    mouse

    • aisha September 30, 2012 at 11:26 am #

      Hi, mouse,

      Hmmmm, sorry i missed the thousand things… lol… but i know the feeling! i hope you’re feeling better! i’m resigned to the idea of having a cold, and think i’ve only got 3-4 days more of it.

      It is a lovely feeling, isn’t it?

      hugs,

      aisha

  3. Wordwytch September 29, 2012 at 1:44 am #

    I’m right there with you on the question. No.

    As for how I feel? Sore. Not from playtime, but from running around like a Go-For… go for this, go for that, come take this…. At least the music is good.

    • aisha September 30, 2012 at 11:28 am #

      Hey, Wordwytch,

      Well, i’m glad the music was good!!

      hugs,

      aisha

      • Wordwytch October 2, 2012 at 2:46 am #

        It was fantastic.

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