Crazed

23 Jan

i was actually thinking about doing a picture of me tethered for faithful, but fortunately Sir untied me before i got up this morning. 

It is just as well because i was a little crazy yesterday, and expect to be a bit that way today too.   i’m finally doing the preparations for the trip, we weren’t sure of the dates until this last week.  So far i have booked a flight – two flights, actually, then canceled and rebooked one so quickly that i got a full refund.

Made reservations at a hotel in Miami where we’ll spend a night each way of the trip.

Had a small panic attack yesterday because all the VRBO’s (Vacation Rental By Owners) that would have worked for us were already booked,  and it looked like hotels were filling up.  So i made reservations at a hotel that would work, but wasn’t really what i wanted.  They could be cancelled though, so that gave me time to keep looking without quite so much anxiety.

And then i found a beautiful place ~ at least i think it is.  You know, sometimes when you get there, it’s not quite what it looked like.  But i think it’ll be good.  It is directly across the street from the beach – it’s a surfer’s beach, so we won’t actually swim there, but i don’t swim in the ocean anyway, and neither does Sir, and there are swimming beaches near-by.

Consulted with my daughter, consulted with Sir.

It has a stove and refrigerator, which i wanted since Sir is a picky eater ~ and we both need coffee in the morning.  

Don’t laugh, in the picture i can see that the appliances are on the patio, so it is an open air kitchen.  i was not sure how Sir would react to that, but He smiled and said “You can’t expect to take America with you to Very-Far-Away.”

So i know that whatever happens, it will be fine.

Woke up last night in a mild panic ~ could i really cancel the other hotel?  Was it not refundable?  Managed to go back to sleep…

This morning, i was able to cancel it ~ glad i didn’t lose much sleep over that ~ and made reservations at the one i want.

Now, all that’s left on my agenda is making sure the shuttle between the airport  and the hotel in Miami is set up, and in Very-Far-Away, we need a hotel near the airport for the night before we leave and transportation from the airport to the hotel we’re staying in when we arrive – about a 90 minute trip.

So.  As you can see, kink is not even in my head today.  Sir just smiles and says that whatever i decide will be fine, and that increases my anxiety, and my daughter has things that are taking up her attention so i can’t be running to her for input every five minutes.

It would be easier to do if i were just planning for myself, because then if it turned out badly, it would only affect me, and i’d just deal with it then.  As it is, i feel ~ well, you know, i am just a bit crazed.

i will  be more comfortable when i have those loose ends tied up.

in the meantime, check this out:

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surfi’m pretty sure it will all be worth it once we get there.  Right?

AND once i get these loose ends tied up, by tomorrow, i’ll put more energy into the KBC, ok?  In the meantime, keep working on your plans to come and making suggestions for what we can do.

22 Responses to “Crazed”

  1. faithful January 23, 2013 at 8:49 am #

    Not quite the same as a pic of you tethered in your bathrobe, but it looks like a wonderful choice. 🙂

    I am sure the trip will be successful- don’t put too much pressure on you yourself- your going to see your Daughter and grand baby… nothing else truly matters right?

    ~faithful

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 10:16 am #

      THanks, faithful, and you’re right, nothing else matters but seeing my daughter and granddaughter – well, except –

      IF I SCREW THIS UP, IT WILL BE AWFUL, HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE, AND I’LL BE STUPID AND A BIG FAILURE NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE ME.

      No, i know that won’t happen. Shoot, i don’t even know who said that. Couldn’t have been me i know better than that.

      LoL

  2. sin January 23, 2013 at 9:10 am #

    And will you surf? Take surfing lessons? Do it!

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 10:14 am #

      O, dear, i had not even considered that. Um, i don’t swim very well. i don’t like getting water up my nose. i don’t much like getting my hair wet. Snorkeling, maybe though. Except now i feel kinda wimpy. Hmmm i’ll think about it.

  3. jade January 23, 2013 at 9:59 am #

    It looks lovely. Breathe. All of your favorite people and things will be together at the same time. Nothing else matters. You can still collect shells, walk on the beach, and get intoxicated with beautiful baby scent. 🙂 i’d tell you to take a xanax, but i’m pretty sure you wouldn’t do that. Did you ask if the coffee pot will take regular filters? (You know, not that crappy kind that only fits their own little tea bag sized pre-packaged funk they call coffee. i bought a coffee pot and hauled it to Beyond Leather for SR).

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 10:12 am #

      Dear Jade,

      Coffee pot? i don’t think they’ll have one at all. We’re taking a French press, so we can boil water and make coffee. 🙂 Usually, i travel with my own coffee maker too, but the french press will take up less room.

      And i know. It will be lovely. Yes. And you’re right, no xanax for me, you do not want to hear my anti-xanax rant. You really, really don’t. But i will breathe. In. and out. and in. and out.

      Grinning thanks!

  4. sirqsmlb January 23, 2013 at 10:26 am #

    Oh it looks beautiful…Remember you are supposed to have fun. As long as you are all together…any adventures – whether planned or not, will be memorable, will be interesting, will create memories, which is a huge part of the point of spending vacation together.

    I think it is so lovely that your Sir is tethering you. You can ask your Sir to take a pic when he puts you to bed…that way it isn’t a problem when you get up in the morning =)

    I bet the tethering helps with the anxiety and stress. Maybe a seriously sound spanking prior to the tether will help eliminate the stressful wake-ups in the middle of the night.

    hugs,
    fiona

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 8:47 pm #

      Hey, Fiona,

      Um, thanks for that thoughtful suggestion about the pic~ i read it to Sir and He just laughed. However, when i read the part about a seriously sound spanking, He said thoughtfully, “Hmm, she might be right!”

      i think i will sleep better tonight anyhow, some things are still unresolved , but the big ones are in place. And of course you’re right ~ it will all be an adventure!!

      hugs back to you

  5. Tiffany January 23, 2013 at 11:07 am #

    Enjoy your trip

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 12:54 pm #

      Thanks, Tiffany! And thanks for reading and for commenting!

  6. nancy January 23, 2013 at 2:17 pm #

    It WILL be so worth every second once you get there! I get crazed even when I go somewhere I KNOW about… you’ll be fine!

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 8:50 pm #

      Thanks, Nancy, i know it will, for real. 🙂 And i appreciate the support!

  7. night owl January 23, 2013 at 8:03 pm #

    Control freak out? I hear that. Travel plans MUST be perfect. We can NOT tolerate anything less than perfect because otherwise we might actually have a…. personal growth experience?

    🙂 and a big hug.

    It looks such a lovely place. White with bright colors is my absolute favorite decorating scheme and it lives on my vision board for my someday-oneday place. It will be great and even when it’s not, it will still be great.

    • aisha January 23, 2013 at 9:34 pm #

      Hey, Night owl, LOL, yeah. No personal growth allowed. Or adventures either.

      It will be great – yes. i know. 🙂 Thank you.

  8. vanillamom January 23, 2013 at 10:18 pm #

    i was absolutely positive I’d commented. *shakes head* was just one of those days here.
    Sorry for the very belated response…i even read this about 2 minutes after you published it! Sounds like you’ve been juggling a ton of balls in the air…and trying to move around in a circle at the same time.

    We still love reading about the non-kink…this…*waves arm in air*….this lifestyle? this is who we are…it is a part of us, but not the whole entire every-moment-in-time- “us”…

    This real stuff matters too. Trips and travel are their own kind of adventures…not kinky per se, but definitely as much adreneline causing (at least for me). (maybe for you when you discover that you really shouldn’t bring an entire suitcase of shoes… mwhahahaha)

    Thanks for letting us peek into your windows and see some of your life. It’s a nice life. A good view. An adventure with our friend and subsis aisha. 🙂

    love,

    nilla

    • aisha January 24, 2013 at 5:15 pm #

      Hey, ‘nilla,

      Thank you for the support! It’s good to know that youall don’t mind a mix of flavors. And i appreciate the reassurance too.

      many hugs…

  9. ytysreloaded January 23, 2013 at 11:23 pm #

    It looks lovely aisha, I bet you were lovely tethered also. Sending you warm peace!

    • aisha January 24, 2013 at 5:16 pm #

      Thank you, ansi, i’m sure it will be lovely, really, once we get there. And thanks for the kind words! much love…

  10. Wordwytch January 24, 2013 at 2:27 pm #

    Deep breath! Everything will be alright. 🙂 Go have a great time!

    • aisha January 24, 2013 at 5:17 pm #

      Thank you, Wordwytch – trying to remember to breathe. How does it go? O, yeah, in – out -in -out ~~~ wait, is that breathing or something else? Sheesh…. 🙂

      • Wordwytch January 24, 2013 at 6:21 pm #

        LOL! Don’t know. Could be breathing. Could be a blow job. Could be a fuck… 🙂

      • night owl January 25, 2013 at 2:28 am #

        Love this…LMAO!

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