Yesterday was a difficult day. Still a little sub-droppy, doing my on-call for jails and had to do two runs – separately – spending three and a half hours on the road running back forth. After my regular work day.
And, as Sin has pointed out, on-call week makes me kind of angst-y anyhow.
And at work yesterday, it seemed like there was a little more sad-painful than usual. Usually, i can absorb it and be ok. But yesterday, there were a couple of times i was on the verge of tears.
One of those times, i wasn’t the only staff person tearing up, so it wasn’t just me, it really was a heavy load of sad-painful. But still.
Fortunately, i know that talking about it helps ~ just telling the story of whatever bothered me to someone else begins to dissipate the weight of it.
And ~ in honesty ~ i was thinking about mouse and Omega. Not in any kind of negative way, just trying to stretch my own understanding, and reaching out to them ~ sending positive energy through the universe in their direction.
Even though i don’t know what direction that is. laughing… but the universe knows where they are.
Thank goodness, Sir and i were still able to have dinner together, in between jail runs.
Being with Him supports me, lets me lean. He doesn’t have to do anything particular. Just His presence, the way He listens, His smile ~ those things are enough to make me feel good.
The way He touches me.
So when i finally get home, and put myself to bed, i have this sense of connection to Him. It’s like ~
~~ it’s like my heart is open, and there’s an invisible thread that runs from me all the way across town to Him.
O, yeah. i guess it’s not a frigging invisible thread. It’s rope, isn’t it?
Laughing… it’s rope that connects us. All the way across town.