Last week, i made some commitments to things i was going to do. Looking back at the week ~
~ i did get my desk at work cleared off. i halfway got my desk at home cleared off. More importantly, i haven’t completely covered my desk at work again yet. It’s not pristine, but it’s not bad.
~ i ate some high carb, sugary things, but only when they actually danced on the table and called my name. Chocolate cake with peanut butter icing at a staff going away party, muffins that someone made and brought in. It would have been churlish not to, right? lol. But even then, only a little bit of it.
~ i didn’t quite stay caught up with paperwork, but real close. If i do a little bit this morning, i’ll be back in good shape.
~ i exercised every day during the week, but then it fell apart on the weekend. Which makes no sense, i have more time to do it then.
And mindfulness. i was more mindful. i’ve been reading a book by Thich Naht Hahn, who’s fairly awesome. He’s got a terrific book called “Ten Mindful Movement.” i bought the book:
http://www.amazon.com/Mindful-Movements-Ten-Exercises-Well-Being/dp/1888375795
which comes with a DVD. You can also see him on youtube:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oWerJwf3-3I
This week, i’ll take time to practice the mindful movements.
There are so many things in my life that are changing, some of them feel positive, some not so much. My frustration level at work is ridiculously low ~ not for clients, or even staff, but for management. Which, since i’m part of management, is not so helpful.
i want.
i want things to be different at work, but the way things are is driven {in part} by societal changes and legislative decisions that my agency can’t control.
i want things to be different at my church, and for sure i can’t control that.
i want my daughter’s life to be the way i want it to be. It would be nice for me if she decided to stay here forever. i’m pretty sure i don’t get to make that choice. Laughing… ok, i’m 100% sure i don’t get to choose for her.
All those things i want the way i want them, and none of them in my control. What a great opportunity for frigging growth, right?
And even with Sir ~ where i am so happy ~ if i’m not careful, i will forget to appreciate what i have and get lost in the desire to have more.
Pema Chodron tells the story of tigers:
“There is a story of a woman running away from tigers. She runs and runs and the tigers are getting closer and closer. When she comes to the edge of a cliff, she sees some vines there, so she climbs down and holds on to the vines. Looking down, she sees that there are tigers below her as well. She then notices that a mouse is gnawing away at the vine to which she is clinging. She also sees a beautiful little bunch of strawberries close to her, growing out of a clump of grass. She looks up and she looks down. She looks at the mouse. Then she just takes a strawberry, puts it in her mouth, and enjoys it thoroughly. Tigers above, tigers below. This is actually the predicament that we are always in, in terms of our birth and death. Each moment is just what it is. It might be the only moment of our life; it might be the only strawberry we’ll ever eat. We could get depressed about it, or we could finally appreciate it and delight in the preciousness of every single moment of our life.”
― Pema Chödrön, The Wisdom of No Escape: How to love yourself and your world
This week, i will remember to eat the strawberry.